surprise visit

I never thought that anyone would read my blog any more until recently one of my new friend told me that he read my blog. Kind of embarrassed at first because of what I wrote in the past. All of the stories, the thought and the crap that I put it into words and post it here. But rereading all those things made my tears come out. It was a beautiful memory. I want to turn back time, to go back to that moment and enjoy it all over again. Unfortunately it is impossible. The only thing I can do is to keep moving forward. Thank you for making me recap all of these memories.

I'm just a human who sometimes think a lot. I also tend to over think. I have asked myself a question, 'what if I can turn back time and change the thing that I did back then with what I think I should have done back then?'. What if?  Just what if?

If I ever given a chance to go back to my high school life and do it all over again I would. I would even do it differently. Make a different choice that will bring me to some other place except for where I am right now. I will make a better decision, be a better person so I can be in a better place.

But, if I'm not where I am right now. I might not have meet who I've met so far. I wouldn't be friend with my friends right now. Wouldn't I? So it brings me to the second question. Who I want to keep in my life if I ever have a different life? I have a name list for that. Just keep in mind that my new life starts after high school.

The friends that I want to keep even if I have a different life.

1. ekin
2. haifaa
3. ain
4. anep
5. juma

The others, I would still love to meet you all but those are the people that kind of mean a lot to me. They have gone through so much with me this past few years. They have helped me went through the roller coaster of life. When I feel a lil bit crazy, they go crazy with me too. When I was a mess, they kicked my ass and helped me get back up. To summarize it all, I love them. 

Before I end this surprise visit to my blog I just wanna say that friendship is a one-life thing that, no matter what, we should never give up on friends. I might blog more often after this. If I feel like it doe. so goodbye and goodnight.